You know, I've about had it with the mood I'm in. It's crazy. I keep trying to pull myself out of it, but good heavens! Nothing is working, not even chocolate!!! I think I'd rather take a flying leap out the window today than deal with the kiddies! They are demanding, loud, and quite over the top! And, it is non-stop. Of course, how else is a 5 yr. old and 2 yr. old twins supposed to act... What is it a full moon or something??? Oh wait, actually it is. Well how dare it!!! Yeah, it's that bad. Even the cats are driving me nuts. You know, you'd think with three cats inside at night at least one of them could catch a ridiculous mouse that keeps pooping in my silverwear drawer !!!!! For the past three days in a row I have had to take all the silverwear in the tray, bleach down the tray, wash all the silverwear again and then set it back up again. I don't want to leave the drawer open because I don't want little mice poop over my counters. I don't want to leave the silverwear on the counter because I have such little counterspace as it is. And, also the past few days I have set out mice traps and caught mice in them! What is this, invasion or something? Just one more thing in the kettle to annoy me. This past fall we caught over 20 mice in about a month. I had hoped we got them all. Unfortunately we live right across from a llama farm and down the road from a bed and breakfast that also acts as a little mini farm. I'm doomed!!! Doomed I tell ya!!! Okay, I suppose it could be worse. At least our roof isn't leaking, we have enough warm sweaters to weather the dampness and cold and well, others appear to be as misrable as I am these days. As the saying goes, Misery loves company!!! Here's to a better tommorow for all!!!
Cheers! ~MacKenzie

Hi Everyone! Well, I just sat down and wrote a nice long entry only to have my computer in a knot and I don't know if it will show up or not. I hope it does, but if not, the basic idea was that I had been reading a bunch of blogs lately and it seems as if most people are either depressed, physically sick or just tired! After ranting and raving about my life (something I won't bore you with again) I began to feel better. Unfortunately, if the last entry does not show up, you won't be able to see the change from this entry to the last. Bummer. But, for those still in a funk...get it off your chest...it really does help!
Cheers! ~MacKenzie

Goodness, I have been reading a lot of blogs lately and it seems like the number one discussion is either sickness, depression or being plain tired!
Why do we think we can be one of the Superfriends and do EVERYTHING??It's crazy! Now, mind you I write this in a state of feeling like I got up on the wrong side of the bed. Of course, for some reason all three girls thought it was "family bed" night last night leaving honey and I at the very edges of our king sized bed. It was either that or get up for the day at 3am. Anyway...Personally, I feel like many of you and I'm being hit from all sides. The kids, my job, my honey, my honey's new job which is going to put most of the child-rearing responsibilities on my shoulders, money issues, dealing with my Mom and Grandmother (a whole other blog topic for another time, believe me!!!), my husband's family, the kids (felt they deserved attention twice... )and the other 10,000 things that people, mainly women it seems have to do to make ends meet. And where does it get us? Right where I'm sitting now with a heavy heart and pounding headache. I mean what, is it Dec. 23 all over again? I thought the only time we were supposed to be this bad off was during the holidays (we have so missed the point of holidays in this country...love and peace turned chaos and stress to the point where many mentally break down from it all. Yikes!) So how is this for ranting and raving! I guess "inner fire" can go many ways. Well hopefully love and peace will find me again by the end of the week. Meantime I will keep reading posts from everyone else and try to make sense of this crazy situation we call life. We all have our ups and downs. Man, I just hope my situation will go up before I go crazy!!! Anyway, thanks for stopping in!
Until the next time! ~MacKenzie

Hi I'm Mackenzie. Actually, this is not my real name, but the name I often go by as a pseudonym. I do much of my writing and personal discovery by using this name. It pays tribute to my Scottish heritage, has all the initials of my four children in there and is just appealing to me in general. I love to read and write. In fact, the books I read I do a small book review on so I can remember which ones I might like to go back and read someday. I also enjoy gardening and taking care of pets of which I have three cats and a chicken right now. My chicken is not doing so well right now as she is three years old but I don't have the heart yet to shoot her because she has survived a racoon attack, near starvation when I went on vacation and my neighbors forgot to tend them (all but she and one other survived...but again they are getting old by chicken standards now anyway)and she's just a tough old bird!!! I am married and have three children of my own. However, this blog is basically about me and although they play a huge part in my life, everyonce in awhile I need to step back to recharge my battery and examine what I'm doing right, what I'm doing wrong, how I can better myself. We live on 5 acres of land in Maine. Right now we are very much a part of the "trailer trash" group. We even admit it!!! We even have a bus as our chicken coop to prove it. However, we want that to change and my honey just got a new full time job after being out of work for a few months. We had two part time jobs, but they weren't able to support us at all. Now Honey will be gone mostly 4 days a week, but the end results will be worth it. We are planning to build a house, barn, greenhouse and start a self sufficient lifestyle. No, we don't want to abandon society completely, I couldn't do that, neither could my honey, but there's nothing wrong with some back to basic living skills that we hope will help our daughters when they need them. Life isn't all candy and roses people! With all the terrible things going on in the world, it's tough and getting tougher. I have also been diagnosed with depression and leading an over stressed lifestyle (but again, who doesn't...). I am on medication, which I absolutely hate!!! But, if it helps me relate to the real world and helps me deal with my children better, then that is the way it will be until I can get the help to get off the wretched pills. It's not that bad actually, but I really don't want them at all. Whatever mood I am in, this blog is for the REAL ME to push what is inside my soul out to a form that I and others can see. I suppose it's more of a journal than anything, and for whatever reason, it's being published on the internet...maybe that's the writer in me. Anyway, I prefer criticism to my work sort of sugar coated, but I have experience in real life that doesn't always make it so. I gladly welcome comments and suggestions and even just friendly chat along the way. With a lot more to come.... Cheers!