It's just a quiet Saturday afternoon. I've been super lazy. The twinadoes got to their dancing lesson and had a great time. Pumpkin went to her horseback riding lesson and even rode with no reins, very exciting for her, especially after that super nasty fall she had back in July. Honey is mowing the lawn, hoping that this might be the last time he has to do it. My windows are open, letting in a cool, very autumn like breeze. I hear the girls playing, I hear birds as they hang around out by the feeders. I feel a certain rhythm of life today.....
Sarah McLachlan- Drawn to the Rhythm
When we wore a heart of stone, we wandered to the sea
Hoping to find some comfort there, yearning to feel free
And we were mesmerized by the lull of the night
And the smells that filled the air
And we layed us down on sandy ground.
It was cold, but we didn't care
[Chorus]
Yes, we were drawn to the rhythm
Drawn into the rhythm of the sea
Yes, we were drawn to the rhythm
Drawn into the rhythm of the sea
We fell asleep and began to dream when something broke the night
Memories stirred inside of us - the struggle and the fight
And we could feel the heat of a thousand voices
Telling us which way to go
And we cried out
"Is there no escape from the words that plague me so?"
And we were drawn to the rhythm
Drawn into the rhythm of the sea
Yes, we were drawn to the rhythm
Drawn into the rhythm of the sea
In the still and the silent dawn another day is born
Washed up by the tireless waves, the body bent and torn
In the face of the blinding sun, you wake only to find
That heaven is a stranger place than what I've left behind
And we are drawn to the rhythm
Drawn into the rhythm of the sea
Yes, we are drawn to the rhythm
Drawn into the rhythm of the sea
And we are drawn to the rhythm
Drawn into the rhythm of the sea
Yes, we are drawn to the rhythm
Drawn into the rhythm of the sea
WHAT???? It's Friday already??? How in the world did that happen? This week seemed to just fly!!!!! Actually, I'm a little glad it's over. Lots of stuff going on and too little time to process.
Your Gemstone is Amethyst
Dignified, impressive, and wise.
You have a deeply spiritual soul
What a way to end another year. We had absolutely beautiful weather. It was warm and breezy. The girls and I took Papa’s dog (whom we happened to be puppy sitting today) out for a walk because it was just too wonderful to stay inside. Afterwards, we played out in the field before life called… literally… the phone lured me away from all the fun.
Technically, Mom C. doesn’t want the girls playing in the back field (yet, she still wants them playing outside… Great Mom… Eat your cake and have it too… Sorry… I do love my mother in law, truly I do, but sometimes…..). She’s nervous to have them near the woods because according to her, mating season has begun!!!! There is a small red deer farm nearby and she claims that she can hear the deer at night. Mom is actually more afraid of moose, but I don’t know… I just don’t think there are any around here yet this year. Just for her though, if I am out there, I’ll let the girls roam the field, but if I’m not, I’ve asked that they stick closer to the house. Unfortunately, their swing set is about 5 feet away from an alder patch so I will say, if I were to be nervous, it would be about the swing set. Consequently, it’s that part of the woods where Honey hit the deer with the rotten pineapple this past July (for those of you who have followed the Inner Fire that long)
Tonight I was out watching the moon peek out between big huge cotton ball clouds. There was just a little piece of perfection sitting on the back porch, rocking, watching the moon. Everything just drifted away. All I heard were dogs or coyotes howling at the moon, and the typical night bugs and birds. My eyes even closed once or twice I just felt so relaxed, yet so ready for anything. Maybe a few more fears can be put to rest this year. Maybe things can be a little more solid, maybe... maybe
Leigh Nash- Nervous In The Light of Dawn
I dreamed I was in the desert
without any love
Stone gray clouds
Hovering above
Silence all around me
I was wondering alone
And I realized there is nothing
Anyone can really own
And I wished for guidance
And I wished for peace
I could see the lightning somewhere in the east
And I wished for affection and I wished for calm
As I lay there nervous in the light of dawn
As I lay there nervous in the light of dawn
It's hard to change and it's hard to move
It takes years for rough to be made smooth
You can use up all of your precious energy
To be tossed like a shell from a hungry sea
And I wished for guidance
And I wished for peace
I could see the lightning somewhere in the east
And I wished for affection and I wished for calm
As I lay there nervous in the light of dawn
As I lay there nervous in the light of dawn
Hold me in your arms until I fall asleep
I'm so tired, hold me
And I wished for guidance
And I wished for peace
I could see the lightning somewhere in the east
And I wished for affection and I wished for calm
As I lay there nervous in the light of dawn
As I lay there nervous in the light of dawn
Nervous here at the beginning of a new chapter of my life? No… not really. In fact, I debated whether to even acknowledge it at all. It is what it is. 35. Whatever peace I had to make with the fact that I am another year older and not another year wiser has been done.
The wishes from the song, though…
Besides wishing I knew how to write HTML code a little better so I could have italized the song lyrics in between my line of flowers ... I do wish for a little more of those: guidance, peace, affection, the calm. And also balance in this strange place I find myself in. Oh yes, a WHOLE lot of yearning for balance in all areas of my life.
And if for some reason, not this year, then I'll just have to keep sitting out under the moon with the same wishes and thoughts until I discover they've come true....
Good morning, or good night, Sleep tight ~MacKenzie
This is a fun song that my ex sister in law ( ) and I practiced singing together. I think maybe "others" heard our duet only a few times. Although the words and such in the video are slightly distracting(you almost have to listen to the song first and then go back a second time to see how well the quotes match up with the song....), I enjoy most of them.... My sort of humor, I guess...
Indigo Girls- Galileo
galileo's head was on the block
the crime was looking up for truth
and as the bombshells of my daily fears explode,
i try to trace them to my youth
and then you had to bring up reincarnation
over a couple of beers the other night
and now i'm serving time for mistakes
made by another in another lifetime
how long till my soul gets it right?
could any human being ever reach that kind of light?
i call on the resting soul of galileo
king of night vision, king of insight
and then i think about my fear of motion
which i never could explain
some other fool across the ocean years ago
must have crashed his little airplane!
how long till my soul gets it right
could any human being ever reach that kind of light
i call on the resting soul of galileo
king of night vision, king of insight
i'm not making a joke, you know me,
i take everything so seriously
if we wait for the time till all souls get it right
then at least i know there'll be no nuclear annihilation
in my lifetime i'm still not right
i offer thanks to those before me
that's all i've got to say
'cause maybe you squandered big bucks in your lifetime
now i have to pay!
but then again, it feels like some sort of inspiration
to let the next life off the hook
but she'll say "look what i had to overcome from my last life
i think i'll write a book!"
how long till my soul gets it right?
could any human being ever reach the highest light?
except for galileo god rest his soul
(except for the resting soul of galileo)
king of night vision, king of insight
how long
(till my soul gets it right)
[til we reach the highest light]
how long
(till my soul gets it right)
[til we reach the highest light]
how long ong ong ong ong.........
I'm in the mood to write today, but have no idea what to write about. There's lots of inner conversations going on, but I just can't seem to pinpoint one down.
Parrot and Monkey had their third dance class today. Papa took Pumpkin to dance class all by himself and it worked out great for them to have a little granddaughter/grandfather time. He wants to do the same with these two, but Parrot is a little shy around him. So, we thought that maybe if I came to the first class or two, it would help. We did a lot of prep work this week to prepare them both for him alone to take them, but Parrot just seemed a little unsure this morning.
It was a sheer act of love that got me up out of bed this morning. I would have slept in if it wasn't for dance class. My head feels three times as heavy with this cold. It's enough that I can function, and function well, but I just feel lousy doing it. Or maybe it was the way I woke up this morning...
I'm not exactly sure how I was sleeping, but sometime in the night, I had found Honey in my sleep and my head and neck were pressed up against his rib cage, my hand flopped over his thigh but my bottom leg was stretched way out behind me, sort of... well, it was just one of those really weird sleeping positions ... Well, you know how it is when you sleep that first night in your own familiar bed after being away from it for awhile? He must have been sleeping so soundly because when the alarm sounded this morning, he jumped up out of bed so quickly that my head practically bounced on the mattress at his sudden departure. Ouch! What a way to start the day.... Had we the time I definitely would have demanded a do-over...
Unfortunately, life was calling. And as soon as he gets home from work today, I have to GO to work... Good thing to that, though is that tomorrow we are planning to go to the Common Ground Country Fair. When asked what I wanted for my birthday this year I asked for a garden plot and a little assistance in it rather than gifts. I'm hoping that by going tomorrow, I can get the rest of the family really excited for the garden as well. The fair concentrates on farming and organic gardening. There's everything from draft horse events, dancing, alternative medicine, a garden parade for kids, canning information and tips to an enormous farmers market, Native American crafts, homemade soaps and candles, to chickens and more. If we hadn't moved over here, I was going to convince Honey to let me have a few chickens again this year.
Now I'm all excited. Now I WISH that he would hurry up and get home so I could go to work and get it over with. Tonight, I can read through the information one more time to prepare.... Although if I did that, I might highlight even more things that I want to see!!!! I guess maybe I better take this energy to go find a new song for Saturday....
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) and I practiced singing together. I think maybe "others" heard our duet only a few times. Although the words and such in the video are slightly distracting(you almost have to listen to the song first and then go back a second time to see how well the quotes match up with the song....), I enjoy most of them.... 
My sort of humor, I guess... 
Good thing to that, though is that tomorrow we are planning to go to the Common Ground Country Fair. When asked what I wanted for my birthday this year I asked for a garden plot and a little assistance in it rather than gifts. I'm hoping that by going tomorrow, I can get the rest of the family really excited for the garden as well. The fair concentrates on farming and organic gardening. There's everything from draft horse events, dancing, alternative medicine, a garden parade for kids, canning information and tips to an enormous farmers market, Native American crafts, homemade soaps and candles, to chickens and more. If we hadn't moved over here, I was going to convince Honey to let me have a few chickens again this year. 
I guess maybe I better take this energy to go find a new song for Saturday....
