I felt it coming on yesterday and no matter what I did, heaviness of the doldrums just kept pounding at me. I know the contributing factor; I'm in just the WRONG phase of my cycle to kick it in its nasty be-hind. Sleeplessness, lack of energy and well, this tell me I am so experiencing PMS. Well.... poopie....

I mean really, What chic likes having to deal with this....
So I started to try and find things that would make me feel better. Unfortunately, spending money makes me feel better. NOT a good thing, I know. Believe me, I know. Especially last night when I had the urge to go on ebay. How stupid of me.

I ended up bidding and winning an auction. It's a simple top... looks like a v neck long sleeve t-shirt, only it's of a burgandy velvet material. Velvet... mmmmmm.... yummy. Yes I am definitely in a total girly girl mood. Today I'd probably cry over a chipped nail...
And unfortunately, with Honey so tied up in his work lately, I feel a bit lonely. His hours have shifted hopefully for the final time in that now he's doing his 20 hours in the position that I used to be in and 15 is taken up as a supervisor to some of the staff who work 1:1 with those the agency assists. It's pretty involved and of course, Honey was given the toughest cases. By the end of the month, he'll finish off his 40 hours by teaching some of the kids computer skills. He's looking forward to that. Last night I just wanted to curl up with him on the couch and watch TV, but shortly after all the girls were in bed, he fell asleep on the couch. I tried to wake him up, but he was just exhausted. It was a REALLY nasty day for him at work. sigh... Normally, I can deal with it, and for the most part I still am. Still, there's this little voice that whispers out to him, "Hello!!! Pay attention to me... in fact, don't just look, Touch me for crying out loud, you idiot@!!!!!!" yep... definitely hormones of the impatient kind....
I was actually looking forward to going to Ellsworth today because we need some cleaning supplies. Shopping, spending money AND it's all things we need. It was a good deal, I thought. Then Honey told me that he had to travel to Ellsworth to meet one of his workers. There was realy no sense for both of us to be there. I'm a little bummed out but, must make the best of things.
This morning the girls are watching a movie so they are content for a bit, I've got my aromatherapy burner out with a soft woodsy, floral scent going. I put my favorite lotion and perfume on, did my make-up, shaved my legs, all that stuff that makes me feel better. I have a really comfy pair of pants that for the past three years I've kept as part of my "going out" clothes. Well, they are starting to not fit as well anymore and after three years, they are getting a little worn, so I'm wearing them today. You know, why not....
Tonight, I think, it is supposed to be a clear night. I hope so. I think maybe what will help is being able to stare up at the stars and just.. be. That, I believe, would be really nice.
Cheers! ~MacKenzie
