Okay, I admit it.... no soul searching quizzes this week after last weeks sort of disaster quiz. If I had any idea the other temperment results, I probably wouldn't have posted that quiz. So.... here's a fun one!!!

You Would Be a Pet Cat

Independent and aloof, you don't like to be dependent on anyone. And as for other people, you can take them or leave them. You often don't care. You live your life by your own rules. And you have deep motivations that no one truly understands. Why you would make a great pet: You're not needy or greedy... unlike other four legged friends. Why you would make a bad pet: You're not exactly running down to greet people at the door What you would love about being a cat: Agility and freedom What you would hate about being a cat: Being treated like a dog by clueless humans

Have a great Friday!!!!! Cheers! ~MacKenzie

I woke up this morning and just could NOT fall back asleep again. The brain just took off running and my mind can't seem to catch up with it.

You know, I was afraid this might happen. Or, should I say, I wondered how I would react when this happened. Mom C is going into her possessive control phase again. It was one thing when you could get away from it; it's another when you are right here living with it, sort of.

I wrote a huge long post this morning, mostly bitching about how she must control everything. But what's the sense in infecting yourself with all that complaining. I guess the biggest problem is that she is one of those people who will not change. She's one of those where you could argue and try to make your point across to her, but she won't budge. Her way is the only way and that's that. Why throw all that energy into arguing when it won't solve anything anyway. Know when to fight and when to back away. I suppose I do too much backing away, but arguing with her is pointless. It just ruffles feathers so why spend so much wasteful energy on it.

I will say that they invited us to go with them this weekend to their beach cottage. Right now I spend enough time with them here, I just don't want to go. Plus, this is the free weekend Honey has before he goes back to work and I have been trying to get him to help me in cleaning out the trailer.

If we don't get that up for sale soon, I'm really afraid we will be stuck with it over the winter. I so want that place GONE!!!!! I hate being there now because it's dark and depressive. I feel in limbo there and it's time to move forward, but its holding us back. This week I have only gone there to feed the cats (which Honey said two weeks ago that he would take to the animal shelter... ), play with them for a minute or two and then come back home. He hasn't set foot in there to help out since we left in the beginning of May. I'm tired. I'm tired of moving things around myself and just plain tired of the situation in general. But it's not going to move itself....

So, I guess, I must get myself prepared for another day. Wow. Everyone has slept in this morning. I can't believe it's 8:00 and there's not been a peep from anyone. I did try to be very quiet and not let anyone know where I was this am. Guess it worked. Well, they can't sleep the day away!!!!

I think it's time to rise and shine!!!!! Hopefully the weather will be better today. It was 102 in Bangor yesterday!!!!! Some of you across the country are used to those high temps, but not here. It's tough on my system to go from high 70's/low 80's with only slight humidity and a nice ocean breeze to the high 90's with extremely high moisture. And, there was no breeze in sight. It was awful. The thought passed through my mind more than once to take some money out of savings and have Honey travel to find an air conditioner.... Actually, the weather is predicting storms and rain today. Hopefully it will cool things off although right now it's hazy and the sun is shining bright in the sky.

Have a great day!!!
Cheers! ~MacKenzie

Well, yesterday was Honey's last day at his old job. I had to laugh when he told me that on Monday the person who was planning his surprise going away party came up to him and asked if he would like to cook something for it. Yes, that is the kind of situation that he has been in for the past year and a half.

Last night he did seem much more at ease. ME? Suddenly reality kicked in. I think we may have a few rough weeks until he can get established at his other jobs for his parents. He's doing quite a variety now. He's working two different jobs in the children's program and doing maintenance here and there starting with the rebuilding of a deck at one of the houses. While he is out and about today doing odd jobs and starting to prepare for his "take over" of things, he's going to stop and see what he needs for materials.

Oh, but get this.... The woman who was supposed to take over my position as coordinator, can't do it. Unfortunately, Mom C asked her to do a little bit of work for her and the results were not at all what Mom wanted, even though Mom had explained what she was looking for. When talking to others, Mom learned that this woman had problems filling out the simple forms that are used at work so Mom spoke with her and it was decided that she might not be the best person for the job. All righty then.

So, Mom C asked Honey if he'd like to take the plans over. Now, he had done them before when he was working for his parents. Lots of things have changed, but.... work is work.... It's come full circle again and once he starts with those, he'll actually be getting close to 40 hrs again. Go figure.... unfortunately, it's going to take some time for that to happen. But, where he will be getting maintenance in, hopefully that will help meantime. Does that all make sense? yes? No? yeah, well.. I'm feeling the same way.

Honey keeps telling me to not worry about it. I'm trying not to, I really am. It's almost like I am not worrying because I am trying so hard not to worry....

The nice thing about it is that I can still help out a little if I want to. I really enjoyed putting all the information together for the meetings. That's something I'm good at and although all the hours will go to him, I don't mind helping out here and there.

And then, Papa came to me last night because his whole filing system has basically gone to wrack and ruin. He asked if I would be interested in helping him start to sort through it. He doesn't want just anyone to do it because some of it has to to with the finances of the business itself. Recently, I have been really trying to think ahead towards fall birthdays and Christmas and whatnot. I asked that he sit down with me and really show me exactly what he needs. If I can do it, I will gladly. That will mean I can breathe a little easier for the upcoming giving season. I know, I KNOW, how crazy is that to be thinking of Christmas now, but I am. I want so much to do things differently so I won't be so stressed when the time comes. I'm trying to put my ducks in a row so to speak.

Well, that's all the time I have for today. I can't believe how HOT is here! When we got up this moring (notice I say we.... how WONDERFUL it was to wake up with him beside me...yummy) it was already 68 degrees out this morning. And hot and sticky and soooo humid.... YUCK! There's supposed to be a really nasty front coming through either late today or tomorrow bring more thundershowers, hail and the likes. But, once that passes and takes all the wet damp air with is, the weekend is supposed to be really nice. Yay!!!!!

Cheers! ~MacKenzie

Thanks Sidh for finding this! It's awesome!





I look at all these women's faces floating past and I just wonder who they are, what their stories are, do all women feel as I feel, if they might react to the same thing that I do and in the same way.

It's a strange day filled with the desire to contemplate life and all it has to offer.

Cheers! ~MacKenzie

I had the worst time trying to find something for tonight. If I found something that I wanted on imeem, it was only 30 sec. Well what fun is that. Then I surfed around a little. And then, I settled on a video from youtube.com.

Aretha Franklin's A Deeper Love

It's interesting because there's no video, it's just the song.



Ms. Franklin certainly has a distinctive singing style, doesn't she.


Cheers! ~MacKenzie