It's been a really weird week. My head has been off in the clouds all week long. I have been dreaming, both day and night, a lot of the time and can't really seem to have a lot of focus on ANYTHING!!! Some of my night time dreams I have remembered, some I have a certain feeling about but can't quite place and once I have woken up in close to panic. Why is it that I go months and month without feeling like I have had a dream and then suddnely BAMMMM dreaming so hard it invades even my waking moments. Not that I've really minded, though, even though I should probably be more focused on the events of the week. "Flightly" and "Spacey" are wrapped up in sort of an emotional high for whatever reason and I'm just going with the flow...

What Your Dreams Mean...

Your dreams seem to show that you're a bit disturbed... but nothing serious. You may have a problem you're trying to work out in your sleep. You tend to be a very productive thinker. Your dreams tend to reflect your insecurities. You have a very vivid imagination and a rich creative mind. You secretly want to hide your dreams from your waking mind.

Welllll..... I wonder where my severed head dream comes in.....

Cheers! ~MacKenzie

Why is it that every summer, I have to go through a round of looking like a cooked lobster to get me to take better care of myself and use sunscreen????



Yesterday was such a beautiful day outside. It was one of those "perfect" summer days where you had the wonderful warm sun shining down heating everything around you, but there was a glorious breeze blowing as well making it balmy and peaceful and well.... perfect.

Mom C and Papa are having some work done to the house so the pounding of hammers and such echo through this little place. Never mind keeping the pictures straight until they are done.... It got annoying after awhile, so we went outside. My soul kept me outside. I read for awhile, meditated for awhile while listening to the birds and trees, closed my eyes and swam in nothingness for awhile.

Meanwhile.... my arms, shoulders, back and parts of my legs are turning a brillant shade of red. I put sunscreen on the girls, even had it sitting next to me for half the day. But did I use it, silly, silly me. Well.... I've learned my lesson again for the summer. I will take the time no matter WHAT to drown myself in it so I won't feel like every time I move I have boiling water pouring down over my shoulders...

You'd really think I'd learn by the last several summers when I've done the EXACT same thing.....

Don't do as I did...... Remember to use sunsceen!!!!
Cheers! ~MacKenzie

So yesterday when I arrived home, Honey was here!! He rarely gets home before I do so it was quite a surprise. But the energy he was giving off really put me on high alert.

After getting the girls settled in, he pulled me aside and told me that he had set some plans in motion.

He wasn't really sure just how I would take them.

uh-oh..... (it's just NEVER good when he says that.....)

Yesterday morning at work, a lot of things happened. It left Honey having to decide whether he was going to punch his fist through the wall, throw his chair out the window or, the choice he chose... to leave. He got into his car and began to drive. He had no idea where he was going but finally ended up at his father's office for advice. Now Honey really isn't one to loose his temper, but if left in the situation, his frustration just builds and builds and builts before getting ready to explode.

So this came to that and Honey went to speak to a few other people from the agency and then he came over to speak to Mom. Then he came home to write his resignation letter. THEN, he let me know that he was leaving his current job and picking up hours with his parents filling in some very important gaps that needed to be filled.



I gotta tell you that there is quite a multitude of emotions floating through my head. On one hand, I know how miserable he's been. He hasn't quite been himself since January. Monday through Friday, he's had killer migraines and moods to match. He's not sleeping well, not eating right, has little energy. Saturday, he works for Mom and Papa's agency. Sunday, although he doesn't work, he's so stressed at having to go to work on Monday, that he has a miserable day. Oh to have him back to his happy go lucky self....

On the other hand, I feel like, Here we go again. I feel like he's not using his talents to the best of use. He's like a starter guy. If you need someone to get back on track or to get something going, if he is excited about it, he can get the entire crowd on his side. He's amazing at setting things up and getting it going. He gets so many ideas and thoughts. But this is what happens when things level off.

I just wish that he could find something that could make him happy. I wish he could find something that he could commit to.

And so, with things already in motion, there's nothing to do but adapt. Things are really going to affect us financially. I just hope he's thoroughly thought things through.

~MacKenzie

When we left here yesterday it was nice and bright and sunny. But as we started heading towards the middle of the state, it started getting more and more cloudy. Still, by the time we got to Little Brother and Fiancee's house, there was no rain.

They have a beautiful home nestled in the woods. Their house sits slightly on a hill and she has little flower spots throughout the hill as you drive into the driveway. The back yard is surrounded by evergreens and ferns and little spots of flowers. There off to one side was the garden arch with a new coat of paint and a creamy yellow tulle draped through it.

Before we left home yesterday we got a call from Little Brother wanting to talk to Honey. Honey was all smiles from the phone call. "You were right," he whispered.

They were getting ready to start the ceremony and suddenly, it begins to rain!!!! Everyone was nice and damp and their hair frizzy. But as quick as the rain started, it stopped.

One of their friends became a notary public just so she could marry them. She and Little Brother and Honey stood under the arch and the traditional bridal march played as Fiancee and her mother went to meet them. Then everyone gathered around and watched them in their bare feet get married. It was so beautiful.

About 5 minutes after the ceremony, suddenly it began to rain once again and it continued to rain in intervals for the rest of the day. The rain seemed to stop just for them.....

Honey and I are so happy to have such a sweet and beautiful (inside and out) Sister in Law and we know they have many, many wonderful moments ahead of them....


Cheers! ~MacKenzie

Unfortunately, I am not going to be here tonight. Fortunately, this is the day when I see if my intuition was right. Today I will see if the family "Picnic" that Little Brother and Fiancee has planned is actually a surprise wedding! Over 50 people to a family picnic does seem a little... odd, doesn't it? I mean.... well, we'll just wait and see. Meanwhile, I thought I would play a little Love Song while I wait.

Please click the play button in order to listen:


whenever I'm alone with you you make me feel
like i am home again whenever i'm alone with
you you make me feel like i am whole again

whenever i'm alone with you you make me feel
like i am young again whenever i'm alone with
you you make me feel like i am fun again

however far away i will always love you however
long i stay i will always love you whatever
words i say i will always love you i will always
love you

whenever i'm alone with you you make me feel
like i am free again whenever i'm alone with
you you make me feel like i am clean again

however far away i will always love you however
long i stay i will always love you whatever
words i say i will always love you i will always
love you